Sunday, May 3, 2009

I'm going through something...

Hello all of my blogging friends. I know that it has been a while since I've posted, and for that, I apologize. I feel like I am going through a slump in my life right now, and maybe it will help me to just get it out there and talk about it.

Usually, blogging is my outlet. It gives me a sense of accomplishment and is a type of stress relief in my life. This past couple of weeks, I have had an ongoing illness that I just can't seem to shake, and it has me really down. I am a person who struggles with anxiety and depression, and I take medication to deal with this. Even though I am taking this medication faithfully, and have been for a year and a half, the past couple of weeks, I just feel like something has changed. I feel like I am gradually falling back into that hole of depression, and I desperately do not want this to happen. I am constantly tired and feel as if I don't want to do anything but lay around at home. I've got to shake this...I have a two year old and a husband to take care of. Please, say a little prayer for me. I don't want to fall back into the darkness of depression. My family deserves so much more of me than I am giving them right now.

I am going to try to start blogging more again. It really does seem to help. Thank you for listening my wonderful friends!

3 comments:

ST. MICHAEL'S WIFE said...

Keep putting one foot in front of the other, sweet friend. I, too, struggle with the illnesses you mention, and medication is a Godsend. It may be time for an adjustment of your meds, and if so, understand that that is a tough process -- it will take time, finding the right med, the right dosage, etc. -- but don't give up! And keep writing -- you are right , that can help. Above all, don't beat yourself up for being ill, and don't be afraid to allow those who love you to do just that -- to love on you and help you through this.

I've never heard anyone describe chronic clinical depression who did not describe it as the "hole" that you mention. I think the "pit" David speaks of so often in his writing is that "hole." I love the Psalm 40:1-5 that talks about Papa-God's lifting "me" from the pit and giving me solid ground to stand on. Sometimes that verse has been a lifeline. Maybe it can be one for you, as well. Grab on to it, and hang tight, and let your sisters in Blogland know how you are doing.

With prayers and understanding, I am clutching you to my bosom! (And it's a BIG bosom! LOL! The physical manifestation of my spiritual gift!)

St. Michael's Wife, Pamm

The Thrifty Trendsetter/ The Drama Queen said...

St. Michael's Wife-Thank you so much for your encouraging words. You lifted my spirits so much, and I am truly grateful for blog friends like you. It is nice to know that I am not alone suffering with these illnesses. Thank you for your prayers. I will keep you updated on my progress.

prashant said...

- it will take time, finding the right med, the right dosage, etc.

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